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i spent 52 mins in 250908 ,
yesterday im working wit "angel" . and yap , yesterday he's in a good mood . and haha , happy working with him . he made me laugh , and i made him laugh like crazy . LOLS . i asked him how to noe which harum manis came in the morning and which harum manis came in the afternoon . he didnt noe how to answer and haha , i said this , "morning harum manis the top banana will turn black , and so , u have to send it back to the factory ." and he was laughing like hell . haha , gonna share tis story with jenny tomolo . and auntie lee too !! other than the harum manis story , i still have the food story , but it isnt tat funny as the harum manis one .
and yes , today i made my father angry with me . after separating ways with daphne and "angel" , i called back home to ask if there's food at home . u noe , i poured my food into my stomach today and i got hungry 2 hours later . digestive system working damn well today !! kudos ! LOLS . and yeah , there's NO food at home !! wat the , cos i tot my father will be cooking some rice or wateva .
hearing tat there's no food at home i kinda happy . cos i no need to wash the bowls and get nag by father .
and so , called ping out . he wanted food too . and we met at 888 . called grace too .
ate porridge and chat .. than walked home wit grace .
father called to ask me wat time i going home . and i initially said tat i'll be home rite now . but after chatting with the both of them on somethings , i called my father back and told him i will be home late . I LIED TO HIM .
i always feel bad lying to my parents . i dont want to . but if i don lie to them , i will be crying in the end . i wonder since when i noe how to lie to my parents . i lie to them that im with my teacher but instead im wit my friends . i lie to them tat i did attend sch but im actually doing my staffs outside . once , i told them tat i wan to go out wit my friends , i admit to them that i will be home super late as i want to chat wit them . they don allow me to go , and i end up crying in the room the whole nite . before grad nite , i've already decided to tell them to let me go and they agreed . but y do they have to debar me from going when i talk to them regarding the money tat i have to spent on my grad nite ?
frankly speaking i hate going to grad nite tat nite . i really don feel like going . its jus because i gave my promise to my girls and my girls did a planning of tat nite which i really wanted to spent the nite with them going crazy around orchard . i kept on thinking how wonderful was it and how fun its gonna be . its our last year and i wan it to be perfect .
and yea , i try asking my father for money to spent on my grad nite dress and shoes and of course i have to pay for the grad nite event . he didnt give me . im already very pissed off and i started to hate my parents . i couldnt believe tat he couldnt fork out the money for me . hey ! im ur child ! u are the one who create me ! i wont be here if not for u !
and yea , i got to ask my uncle for the $50 which make me feel bad . i tell u , $50 maybe small to u , but to me , its like $5000 ..
and , father has been saying all these harsh words towards me . before going to work yesterday i hold back my tears . it was a very terrible feeling . but i couldnt hold back anymore , i sit at the staircase to cry . i wish someone was beside me rite now . but who will come ? my uncle always say tat i will cheer him up with my crazy mind when im with him . but who will cheer me up ? i always say tat bow will always be there for me , but i really don wan them to see me crying . i must be strong . i must be brave . i wan everyone to see the strong and happy side of me .
But i had enough . i wanted to confront my father . y didnt he jus sign the papers and get out of my life ?! jus give us maintance money monthly will do . and u have peace and we too . than , i wont be begging u to let me go for the pri 6 overseas trip , sec 2 adventure camp , staying out late at nite , and beg u for money . i don wan to give u an attitude . i hate u but i love u at the same time . i don wan to be sandwiched between love and hate . i feel that my father is selfish . and i dont wan to be like him .
im proud to have a chef as my father . but the way he display his adult attitude to me as a father really hates it . hais , sometimes , i pity my father too .
he wants to communicate wit us , but always at the wrong timing . he met with something in his work , who can he confine in ? my mum ? me ? my 2 bro ?! NO ! nobody will tok to him !! i used to cry in the nite cos i feel bad . is it wrong to treat him like tat ?
what should i do ? can someone tell me ?
yesterday im working wit "angel" . and yap , yesterday he's in a good mood . and haha , happy working with him . he made me laugh , and i made him laugh like crazy . LOLS . i asked him how to noe which harum manis came in the morning and which harum manis came in the afternoon . he didnt noe how to answer and haha , i said this , "morning harum manis the top banana will turn black , and so , u have to send it back to the factory ." and he was laughing like hell . haha , gonna share tis story with jenny tomolo . and auntie lee too !! other than the harum manis story , i still have the food story , but it isnt tat funny as the harum manis one .
and yes , today i made my father angry with me . after separating ways with daphne and "angel" , i called back home to ask if there's food at home . u noe , i poured my food into my stomach today and i got hungry 2 hours later . digestive system working damn well today !! kudos ! LOLS . and yeah , there's NO food at home !! wat the , cos i tot my father will be cooking some rice or wateva .
hearing tat there's no food at home i kinda happy . cos i no need to wash the bowls and get nag by father .
and so , called ping out . he wanted food too . and we met at 888 . called grace too .
ate porridge and chat .. than walked home wit grace .
father called to ask me wat time i going home . and i initially said tat i'll be home rite now . but after chatting with the both of them on somethings , i called my father back and told him i will be home late . I LIED TO HIM .
i always feel bad lying to my parents . i dont want to . but if i don lie to them , i will be crying in the end . i wonder since when i noe how to lie to my parents . i lie to them that im with my teacher but instead im wit my friends . i lie to them tat i did attend sch but im actually doing my staffs outside . once , i told them tat i wan to go out wit my friends , i admit to them that i will be home super late as i want to chat wit them . they don allow me to go , and i end up crying in the room the whole nite . before grad nite , i've already decided to tell them to let me go and they agreed . but y do they have to debar me from going when i talk to them regarding the money tat i have to spent on my grad nite ?
frankly speaking i hate going to grad nite tat nite . i really don feel like going . its jus because i gave my promise to my girls and my girls did a planning of tat nite which i really wanted to spent the nite with them going crazy around orchard . i kept on thinking how wonderful was it and how fun its gonna be . its our last year and i wan it to be perfect .
and yea , i try asking my father for money to spent on my grad nite dress and shoes and of course i have to pay for the grad nite event . he didnt give me . im already very pissed off and i started to hate my parents . i couldnt believe tat he couldnt fork out the money for me . hey ! im ur child ! u are the one who create me ! i wont be here if not for u !
and yea , i got to ask my uncle for the $50 which make me feel bad . i tell u , $50 maybe small to u , but to me , its like $5000 ..
and , father has been saying all these harsh words towards me . before going to work yesterday i hold back my tears . it was a very terrible feeling . but i couldnt hold back anymore , i sit at the staircase to cry . i wish someone was beside me rite now . but who will come ? my uncle always say tat i will cheer him up with my crazy mind when im with him . but who will cheer me up ? i always say tat bow will always be there for me , but i really don wan them to see me crying . i must be strong . i must be brave . i wan everyone to see the strong and happy side of me .
But i had enough . i wanted to confront my father . y didnt he jus sign the papers and get out of my life ?! jus give us maintance money monthly will do . and u have peace and we too . than , i wont be begging u to let me go for the pri 6 overseas trip , sec 2 adventure camp , staying out late at nite , and beg u for money . i don wan to give u an attitude . i hate u but i love u at the same time . i don wan to be sandwiched between love and hate . i feel that my father is selfish . and i dont wan to be like him .
im proud to have a chef as my father . but the way he display his adult attitude to me as a father really hates it . hais , sometimes , i pity my father too .
he wants to communicate wit us , but always at the wrong timing . he met with something in his work , who can he confine in ? my mum ? me ? my 2 bro ?! NO ! nobody will tok to him !! i used to cry in the nite cos i feel bad . is it wrong to treat him like tat ?
what should i do ? can someone tell me ?
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