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i feel like fainting now ..
drop dead on my bed .
but i cant .
got to prepare for sch later .
im hungry .
yawns .

im emo-ing now .
its lovyn's birthday today .
something happened in my family .
kind of serious .
i was stun by it .
i didnt noe how to react .
and i react by jus CRYING .

it didnt save me from anything .
jus let me feels much more comfortable .
the thing is still running in my mind .
and my shoulders are giving me problems rite now .

tomolo's the interview ,
and here i am ,
infront of my lap top .
staring into the wall infront of me .
thinking how to start the ball rolling to my father .
saying is easy ,
but doing is hard .

i wanted to tell the 8 of u wat happened .
but than again ,
what u all could do was jus to comfort me .
i appriciate it .
will tell u all about it when we meet ba .
but for now ,
this shall be kept deep inside my heart .

forgive me for not telling u all first hand .
i need time .
how i wish i could disappear now .
and now i wish the shoulder that i need is here .

my lil' brother ,
i don blame u for doing this .
but y didnt u think twice ?
i blame myself for not stopping you when my 6th sense tells me to do so .
im speechless for that moment .
and now ,
IM LOST .

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im in a super low mood recently .
im down .
im sad .
i wan to cry ,
but i cant .
i spent the whole nite crying ,
but it was still not enough .

jus an answer .

wat i need was JUS AN ANSWER .

nvm , its over .
i put myself in ur shoes ,
and i must understand wat u are thinking too .
its not easy to face confession for a guy like u .
but its alright .
time will heal me .
friends will heal me .
jokes will heal me .
chocolates will heal me .
ice cream will heal me .
plain water will heal me .
crabs will heal me ..
but it wont heal my fats .
=(


im glad tat grace wong online-ed at that point of time .
but i went to sleep without talking much .

i don wan to think about it le .
let it be ba .
for now ,
i jus wanna finsih my studies .
jia you girl .


i wan a goldfish .