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it should be grace birthday today .

happy birthday girl .
i miss you lots .
turning one year older , which makes us more mature , and our friendship one year older.


kinda sad today , got to know something happen between those guys .
perhaps you are right , i shouldnt know it .
but , im in the middle of this group , is there anything which i cannot know ?
if im the one being keep in the dark , i would be very miserable .
i don noe what happen infront and what happen behind , and just got to know that both are not gonna talk to each other ?

and now , here comes the truth which i don know if i can believe it or not .
but i really hope its a miscommunication only .
i wish , pray and hope that those harsh words you have said is only in a fit of anger and you DON MEAN IT .
cos it really broke my heart .

i bear with it till i finally get home .
i cried ,
i think ,
i tried .

its great that you step back , put down ur pride and apologise .
this is wat i like .
u think of us .

i don wan all my efforts during these years to gone down the drain .
what you said might be correct , he is too self centered .
but without him , would we be so happy now ?

seriously i don blame you . its not ur fault .
both of you are just victims .
you are angry is becos he jus called and scold for nothing .
you are angry cos you think its he the one who forcing him to stay .
the fault lies with the planner .
and the planner didnt even tell who is coming and jus call call call .


anyway , what happened has already happened . we know each other for so long already .
guys , don be angry anymore . its not worth it .
ur are just breaking my heart more , when i need the most support from .
a lesson to learn , a step to got to noe us more better . and to let us see a clearer picture of who we are , what are we made of , and what we should do .

seriously im scared .
becos other than the 8 of us ,
i don noe how i can walk the road down together with .
i cry not becos im sad .
becos ur are angry for nothing which makes u all stubborn and don wanna see a clearer picture .
i cry is becos i wan u all back .
IM NOT THE TYPE WHICH I PUT FEELINGS EASILY INTO A FRIENDSHIP .


i don hope that u all will see this blog post .
i don hope that u all will come and tok to me about this matter anymore .
i jus wanna see us back together , happily going out together .
blocking other ppl way together , and slacking together .

that's our pattern right B.O.W ?